Mean to be Clean

Eating clean should be the simplest thing in the world. We have all the knowledge to know what's good and bad and yet diet always seens to be the thing that stumps people. Probably because of the 'good' and the 'bad'. I'm beginning to accept, because I have known for many years, it is about balance. A treat now and then will nit throw all your efforts out if the window, yet a lot of us still do it. One of my favourite analogies is; if you get a flat tyre, you do not then slash the remaining three tyres, you change the flat and carry on with your journey. Why I cannot apply this to my food habits is still baffling me, but I am getting better. 

I completed a Midnight Walk for a local hospice at the weekend, and my friend and I completed the half marathon distance in 2 hours 50 minutes. Not bad for just walking. I've got a 10k Race For Life run in 2 weeks and as much as I enjoy training for sport and charity events, I'm definitely spending the next 6 months focusing on getting strong and getting lean. It'll be a rocky road, with many slip ups. Especially with my birthday and a holiday not far off. But it'll be worth it. But can I do it? My mind works in funny ways. One time I will crave routine and commitment to training, then all I will want to do is do what I want,  which is normally resistance training. When i have allowed this before, I've completely lost all discipline and end up where I started originally, if not in a worse place.

This time it feels different. I feel it's possible. I just need to keep it simple and not rush. My impatience is epic and that will be the most challenging part, but by giving myself a whole year to get 'shredded' the pressure is already off. And with birthdays, Christmas, New Year and Easter etc, I know there will be days when I falter. As I usually aim for perfection, this also lifts a lot of pressure from my shoulders. 

I intend to blog regularly about this year's journey. Much more regularly that I have done! It could be interesting, it could be dull as dishwater, there's only one way to find out 😊

Is it wrong?

It is really bad, that I watch films and wish that would happen to me? And more to the point, that I am fit and skilled enough to deal with situations? I don't mean the rom-com style films, or the more interesting '50 shades....', but films like 'RED'.  That's what's on while I write this. Between wishing I could wield a firearm so smoothly, and thinking that someone who doesn't like Bruce Willis can't be trusted, I am trying to figure out why I have eaten what I just have.  Crisps, biscuits, and chocolate. Tomorrow is the beginning of Lent , I suppose, My chance to regain control! If only I didn't lose control so easily, like a child in a toy shop.  If I carry on like this, I'll never take down some crazed, egotistical, ex-military arms dealer!

I do the same when I play Tomb Raider.  Who wouldn't want to be Lara Croft?! She's intelligent, athletic, can kick ass and has an amazing body! I'll take her as a role model over Kim Kardashian, any day!  I'm not really sure what I'm going on about here. It must be the sugar, or the cold my body decided it would take on today.

Anyway, this is a rambling first entry to my blog.  Created in a moment slight clarity and definite despair,  Hopefully, through getting my thoughts out here I'll be able to finally find balance between doughnuts and dumbbells (I had to get it in, didn't I?).   I love both of these things. I love the strength I get from squatting with a barbell and doing a push up from my toes. Unfortunately, I also love the gooey, sweet sensation of a Krispy Kreme doughnut......amongst other things.

I need to find out how I can exercise and get the body I want, whilst also enjoying all the lovely things I like to eat.  I think this is the true reason I want to blog about this.  I'll just see where I end up!  

Right, I'm off to make pancakes.  Then, tomorrow. Another chance to get it all right!